I don't know what the hell it is, but there's obviously something I'm just not getting. Why the hell am I such a fucking loser. Damn it, I can't get anything straightened out, can I? Nothing I do makes sense. What the hell, what is it that I'm not seeing?! I really should just fucking die; damn it. I might as well give up on everything I ever even tried to do; there's not damn point in finishing it when I won't finish it well, so why not just end it in misery and save me the trouble of having to go through complete failure? Damn it, I'm pissed off. WHAT THE HELL IS IT?!!